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Aug. 28th, 2012

i hate my skin. i wish i had smooth, perfect, porcelain skin, so that i didn't have to wear make up, because it makes me feel like i'm rubbing slime onto my face. but i have to. my skintone is uneven, my pores are too large, my skin is too rough, too sensitive to EVERYTHING i've tried to use on it. my eyelids turn red, and half of the time in the shower each day is spent trying to fix my face into looking semi-decent even though it actually hurts to be pretty much tearing up my face. i've tried scrubs, masks, lotions, strips, a deathly looking metal stick to stab into my skin, wipes, expensive cotton gel moisturisers. i hate my whole face. my lips so easily get chapped. they're too pale. my eyes are too watery, and disappear into my doughy cheeks. my eyelashes are too short. my teeth are disgusting, i can't smile in photographs. they're too crooked and small, and rotten. my nose is massive and looks like i've broken it dozens of times in the past. my eyebrows are too thin and sparse. i have no chin. i hate my body. my skin is scarred and covered in scabs, rough and messy looking. i always have hangnails on my fingers. my forearms are huge and repulsive, just like my thighs, my calves. i wear skirts all the time to hide my thighs. i'm covered in bug bites. i can't wear anything low backed because i cut all my back because it's so horrible. i'm frumpy and flabby. no one ever tells me i do, but i'm constantly afraid that i may smell bad. i never want to get out of the bath or shower because i feel dirty as soon as i'm out again. i like being pale, but you can see all the flaws, the veins and marks, the bags under my eyes.  i stand awkwardly and trip over my own feet. my weight is in all the wrong places and i look like a sack. i feel that because of my body shape, no one can take me seriously or love me. i feel like as soon as i'm not around they are laughing, and i am inferior because i look wrong. i look strange and stupid. i would go out more if i didn't know people were laughing at how i look, and not wanting to be around me. i'm just disgusting

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Jun. 17th, 2012

i fucking hate it here and i'm stuck here for two weeks while my dad is on the other side of the country taking drugs and getting drunk in a squalor, i'm not sure which of the two is worse.


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